Just a moment ....

Rahul Arora, has been lying on the bed in an ICU ,in one of the renowned Multi specialty hospital for the last 15 days. He is on ventilator , all his parts are almost damaged except his brain and heart and he has been waiting for his heart to stop pounding. All the people around him whom he has been thinking to be of his own, are in their own states of mind.Some of them are sad, some of them are bored visiting him, some of them have been waiting for his death and  some waiting to heir his fortune! He never imagined a day of this sort being a multi millionaire , he thought he is invincible!! Now here he is waiting for his own death very desperately....The heart stopped pounding..And Then,  He got his freedom! Raju,never felt he belonged to that place. He has been a loner, introvert who never wanted to mingle with other kids , all of the different age groups, not even with the ones of his age. Many questions, many dreams, lot of anguish and pain, longing for love, waiting...

One day , I started pondering on a thought called "What is "Me""? What exactly constitutes me? Is it my name? Is it my appearance? Is it my body the flesh and bones in it? Is it my education background? Is it my job? Is it my wisdom? Is it my assets? Is it my thoughts? Is it my ideology? Is it my profoundness? Is it my love ? Is it my family? Is it my kindness and magnanimity? Is it what I become at the end of my life ? Is it what I am right now? Is it what I was in the past? What is me? What will be mine? What is it that is eternal? What is it that is beyond space and time? What Am I here for? What am I doing right now? What is that which is permanent and eternal? Will all the ones for for whom I have been living , casting off all my emotions, shedding tears,craving for happiness, worrying about, be with me forever?? Whatever I am worried about very much now, Will that be relevant an year later? If whatever I do is only bounded by ...