Can someone on Earth answer me please?

Oh, you were never in love with me right?

or better say You were never mine!

I used to smile when people called your name, talk about you, but now I can’t even smile and say your name at the same time.

So maybe things between us were too good, ya know, Maybe we reached the point where things couldn’t get any better…so they just had to get worse… and maybe that’s why you left me. Did you ever love me? or atleast feel that you might fall for me one day?But then ,now I know its too late for such questions.Like many other questions in my life, these also remain so forever.

I’m so sick and tired of acting like I’m fine because truthfully, I’m not. I can’t even talk to you without being so incredibly sad. You were the one person who was always supposed to be there for me, my best friend, my everything.. and you ruined it all in that moment. And I acted like it didn’t hurt, and for a while, I didn’t think it did…but the tears are here and I now realize that it hurt more than anything in the world.Why me?? Well... I have no answer for this too...

Ever since we met, we’ve always been really close; closer than close. We were best friends, but it seemed like there was something there. We were always together, always smiling. Everything in the world seemed to suddenly make sense when you were right there beside me. I felt it, did you not? Everyone else saw it, they even talked about it to me. Did they not to you? I don’t know, may be you might not have felt it the same way, and may be its not your mistake too.. and may be what you saw is clear friendship between us.

 But now, whose mistake is it that Im suffering now... crying incredibly... and Im just existing istead of living... ?? Is it mine or yours? err....  I have no answer for this too.....

I dont want to blame you because you always said you dont love me, but I always heard it as you do, until that day dawned into my life.I saw you with her  and as I watched with my fake smile — I could hear my heart breaking and I could feel it being torn apart because it was then that I realized I am truly just a friend and that’s all I’ll ever be. I miss you and will miss you forever,

What happened to my innervoice which used to intrude when we were together? It used to yell that you also loved me when ever you said something sweet, whenever you smiled, when ever you acted desperate for me and whenever you were there for me.. What happened to it today? It became so dumb that I really wonder if it died.. Well, I have no answer for this too...

I couldn’t deal with you and her being together. It would hurt so badly… Do you know how much it kills me every time I see her look at you? Every time I hear her say your name? To know I’ve been replaced kills me so brutally, I feel heavy..….

I don’t hate you for loving ‘her’…Nor do I hate ‘her’ for receiving the love I once wanted, But Whom should I hate, whom should I blame, Whom should I fight with?... ..Answer..??!!!! And the answer is Just silence as always..!

I have a favor to ask, Hmmm, I know its a little too much.After all, you said you’d always be there for me, so, here it goes:

Don’t like her. Don't Love her. Don’t be with her. It hurts me too much. And if I could possibly fit one more thing in there if it is okay with you, maybe, just maybe, do you think you could fall for me?

I never wanted anything, other than to be your everything.