Being single!

Being single!

Life starts resembling a TV serial, very slow, very boring. Everything in life seems to be stagnated and paused except time. Nothing seems to be ‘happening’. Well yes people say a lot can happen over coffee but now nothing except a bill I guess ;)Moments Slowly start disappearing. People in life start moving on in their pursuits and we see ourselves as the one who is still standing at the same place just as a witness to the movements happening around us. Job looks boring. Music reminds of none, It stops bringing kind of smiles, blushes, gloom or whatever it used to. Music wand seems to have lost its spell! Hangouts turn out to be dull, formal, and start sounding like incoherent and boring talks.You have bucks to buy, But don't really know what to buy...Smarter technology, smarter living, Lots of social media, lots of hellos… and chats that last hardly 15 mins .. and then left dumbfounded.. not knowing what to talk. People around you show that marriage is the only obvious move that can make your life happening .. Or  well I can say they show as if It is inevitable. Parents talk only about alliances when you go home in their pursuit to get ‘the one’..Friends either talk about about their Post Grad in US or their trips with their spouses ( Of course they rarely talk but when they do, they talk only this!! )Or post their pictures in different countries they go or  talk excitedly about their just born kids..!  

This is just like someone threatens you a check on the Life chess board and then you have probably one or two probable moves to rescue yourself. One move is ‘The marriage ‘ all of them talk about.  And the next move is the career change  ;) You are just bored with the company you are working for as you see the same people around you having things so happening in their lives, the same manager taking you for granted, and the work looks as if its not being recognized how better you work  and therefore you feel like you have to move to a new place,  at least to feel something new in your life for example change in numbers on the payslip ;) (No offense to people who are on serious career tracks. But I see this move is just a change on payslip because by this time we all know what an IT job is all about)

And now the biggest confusions always wandering in the mind at nights when you fall off to sleep,The never ending train of thoughts and disturbing flashes of busy life and people with lot many questions... Will I get the right one? Or is it reallyLife changing  to get married ? or is it really a tie and quagmire? Should I leave my parents? Should I go for higher studies?Should I change my job? Why Am I not getting any calls..Am I that dumb,..? What is it that I like most? Am I doing what I like?Should I leave the job for doing what I like? Well, What do I like?.......... Well why…………..and then by this time already sleep wins over…. And then the next day dawns upon..!

P.S : This is just one state of mind.One short Phase of Life. Nothing is permanent and everlasting ,Neither this is :) Not that You live only in melancholy , but it is one state of mind that you be at times! I Just wanted to save this state of Mind by penning it..!