Say it off..
The greatest weakness of most humans is their hesitancy to tell others how much they love them while they're alive.
There are some days in our life where our instincts rule more than anything else.And It was one among such days when I was excited, happy , for no reason.. Yet, hoping for something strange thats going to happen to me..We just stepped into a new phase of life, Just passing innocent adolescence.World seemed so colorful,fresh and friends seemed to be life...I felt like a butterfly, that has undergone a metamorphosis from its previous phase!Those were the days when social networking sites were just budding ,and Just an increment on my scraps on Orkut used to make my eyes flicker with pride.
And that day, when I was lost browsing, something really glued my eyes.A profile pic with Nike mark on it. I really dint know whats so special about it..But something dragged me from inside and I suddenly started a conversation.As if I already knew where this is going to lead me..
" Hi, How are you"?
I was waiting refreshing the page again and again, with a strange pounding in heart.. However nothing seemed to change for half an hour from then and I thought its time to log off. I did log off , but curiosity in me haven't left me.
And the next day was normal, I almost forgot about it and then in the evening when I came back from college and spoke about all our ragging stories, What else can you expect from a 1st year student of engineering..? I suddenly remembered my strange stranger. And suddenly found a reply there.
"Hi, Im fine, but may I know who is this, I somehow dint recognize who is this from your profile? "
When I read it I suddenly felt a pang of guilt and embarrassment inside me and said " Oh, Im sorry, it was just by mistake, I mistook you to someone else, Sorry, cya.."
" Well,whom did u think I was?"
" Hmmm... My college mate ..from ECE, I actually dint go completely through your profile,and of course it dint reveal much, and was confused with the name, Sorry"
" Hey thats ok, Dont be so formal, It happens.., So you are from first year engineering trying to rag and tease a senior of final year is it?"
Well this made me confused. I was afraid, and said " Hey I'm sorry sir, I had no intentions of that sort"
" Hmmm, it seems I can believe you for a moment ;) So, tell me about yourself....
Well.. This continued.. and we came to know that we both belong to different places and different streams nothing in common except Engineering ;) Then the messenger talks started.
It became a habit for me to check his scraps,and blush till my cheeks are red enough looking at how his friends are teasing him, for this strange relation! Well, I was dying to hear his voice, when one day all of a sudden he asked me for my number. I dint have a phone by that time, and hence I had to give him the Mobile phone that we that was used in common at home.I felt that he is reading my thoughts. The first call was electrifying. His voice seemed so familiar and interesting..I almost fell instantaneously for it. And then the story began..
There on things took a very fast pace, soon all his friends became mine...I was always on my phone...All of them stated teasing us..and I had always been saying that we are just friends. Though I wanted the relation to be something more than it, i never confessed this anywhere. I never knew what he had on his mind, never dared to ask.
I was still in the same state of fear,confusion and when one fine day, he called me and said that is planning to go USA for his MS.. Then I have decided not to confess as I felt that decision of his revealed what he felt for me and I dint dare to speak a word of my feelings. Silence was my only answer!
And finally a day came and he left. We neither met each other nor revealed anything. May be we ourselves were confused what name we should be giving to the strange bond we had.,. We used to have conference calls.. where all of them used to directly ask us when is the marriage ,both of us just smiled and said thers nothing like that between us. He finished his MS and I have completed my 3 years of my Engineering,we just spoke as it was...just laughing at our common friends and their teasing
And two more years glided away, with very occasional calls, once in a bluemoon.. and both of us fell busy with our lives.. Suddenly life changed so much. Both of us were busy with our careers and plans.
Like us, Orkut also lost its importance,, and Facebook took its place.. World kept moving on..
And suddenly one day, he called me saying that he is going to get married to a girl from his 'community' and his parents already liked her and sent her pic in the mail. His voice was neutral I dint find any excitement nor anything gloomy.Well, even I had to sound flippant..What option do I have. I told him I was happy for him and asked him for a treat.. We spoke casually after that and that was the last call from him.
We are still friends on our Orkut , Facebook and when any new social networking sites that come up and ask me " Do you know Varun?? Get connected", I just give a sheepish smile and say yes...:)
World moved on..So did I....
There are some days in our life where our instincts rule more than anything else.And It was one among such days when I was excited, happy , for no reason.. Yet, hoping for something strange thats going to happen to me..We just stepped into a new phase of life, Just passing innocent adolescence.World seemed so colorful,fresh and friends seemed to be life...I felt like a butterfly, that has undergone a metamorphosis from its previous phase!Those were the days when social networking sites were just budding ,and Just an increment on my scraps on Orkut used to make my eyes flicker with pride.
And that day, when I was lost browsing, something really glued my eyes.A profile pic with Nike mark on it. I really dint know whats so special about it..But something dragged me from inside and I suddenly started a conversation.As if I already knew where this is going to lead me..
" Hi, How are you"?
I was waiting refreshing the page again and again, with a strange pounding in heart.. However nothing seemed to change for half an hour from then and I thought its time to log off. I did log off , but curiosity in me haven't left me.
And the next day was normal, I almost forgot about it and then in the evening when I came back from college and spoke about all our ragging stories, What else can you expect from a 1st year student of engineering..? I suddenly remembered my strange stranger. And suddenly found a reply there.
"Hi, Im fine, but may I know who is this, I somehow dint recognize who is this from your profile? "
When I read it I suddenly felt a pang of guilt and embarrassment inside me and said " Oh, Im sorry, it was just by mistake, I mistook you to someone else, Sorry, cya.."
" Well,whom did u think I was?"
" Hmmm... My college mate ..from ECE, I actually dint go completely through your profile,and of course it dint reveal much, and was confused with the name, Sorry"
" Hey thats ok, Dont be so formal, It happens.., So you are from first year engineering trying to rag and tease a senior of final year is it?"
Well this made me confused. I was afraid, and said " Hey I'm sorry sir, I had no intentions of that sort"
" Hmmm, it seems I can believe you for a moment ;) So, tell me about yourself....
Well.. This continued.. and we came to know that we both belong to different places and different streams nothing in common except Engineering ;) Then the messenger talks started.
It became a habit for me to check his scraps,and blush till my cheeks are red enough looking at how his friends are teasing him, for this strange relation! Well, I was dying to hear his voice, when one day all of a sudden he asked me for my number. I dint have a phone by that time, and hence I had to give him the Mobile phone that we that was used in common at home.I felt that he is reading my thoughts. The first call was electrifying. His voice seemed so familiar and interesting..I almost fell instantaneously for it. And then the story began..
There on things took a very fast pace, soon all his friends became mine...I was always on my phone...All of them stated teasing us..and I had always been saying that we are just friends. Though I wanted the relation to be something more than it, i never confessed this anywhere. I never knew what he had on his mind, never dared to ask.
I was still in the same state of fear,confusion and when one fine day, he called me and said that is planning to go USA for his MS.. Then I have decided not to confess as I felt that decision of his revealed what he felt for me and I dint dare to speak a word of my feelings. Silence was my only answer!
And finally a day came and he left. We neither met each other nor revealed anything. May be we ourselves were confused what name we should be giving to the strange bond we had.,. We used to have conference calls.. where all of them used to directly ask us when is the marriage ,both of us just smiled and said thers nothing like that between us. He finished his MS and I have completed my 3 years of my Engineering,we just spoke as it was...just laughing at our common friends and their teasing
And two more years glided away, with very occasional calls, once in a bluemoon.. and both of us fell busy with our lives.. Suddenly life changed so much. Both of us were busy with our careers and plans.
Like us, Orkut also lost its importance,, and Facebook took its place.. World kept moving on..
And suddenly one day, he called me saying that he is going to get married to a girl from his 'community' and his parents already liked her and sent her pic in the mail. His voice was neutral I dint find any excitement nor anything gloomy.Well, even I had to sound flippant..What option do I have. I told him I was happy for him and asked him for a treat.. We spoke casually after that and that was the last call from him.
We are still friends on our Orkut , Facebook and when any new social networking sites that come up and ask me " Do you know Varun?? Get connected", I just give a sheepish smile and say yes...:)
World moved on..So did I....
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